August 19, 2017

Esmeralda Djali Willow Tree Figgy Pudding.







Esmeralda Djali Willow Tree Figgy Pudding. Esme. I would call your complete name often in all its' lyrical familiarity and you would always come running to me, especially when I would playfully demand, "Where are you?" and "What took you so long?" You were eleven years old when you left us on Wednesday the 16th of August and I'm still trying to understand what happened. Didn't we make a pact that you would live well into your twenties? You were and always will be my, Tiny Dancer ; four tiny, wee pounds of unwavering loyalty and love,  dancing around me like ethereal wisps of light and air, lifting me up every single day of your life. It's fair to say you only had eyes for me and my eyes in turn sought yours out whenever I could throughout the day to confirm that , dare I admit it out loud? You were my oyster with not one grain of sand in it, like my other equally cherished pets who had come before you and who are with me now, nor were you my oyster with  two grains of sand.  You were my necklace of pearls. . .  no, still that is not enough. You were a thousand pearls strung together to form a cloak that shielded me from loneliness and reminded me that love and gentleness can be reciprocated. You were  an uncommon gift from nature, a treasured gift from the great spirit above. You slept with me, curled up in my arms, every single day of your life. You weren't in my arms the night before we had to say our last good-bye.  The next morning, the morning you left , you summoned all your remaining strength and you jumped onto the bed as if wanting to remedy that small infraction. I placed your frail body in the middle of the bed and covered you in blankets. I lay next to you and sang you our song. I sang over and over until the words felt empty, until I felt empty knowing what was to inevitably come. I left you to get a glass of water. When I returned, your spirit was gone. You had managed to slip out from under the covers in the middle of the bed and you had made your way to the upper part of the bed, to the spot where you had lain next to me every single night for the eleven years of your life. I wrapped you in  blankets again and curled around you. I sang the song. I sang the song I sang every night before we would fall asleep. I sang the song one last time." Who loves you pretty baby? Who's going to hold you through the night? Who loves you pretty baby? Who's going to love you all your life?" Esmeralda Djali Willow Tree Figgy Pudding. Esme. My Tiny Dancer. How fortunate were we to be in the world, together, at the same time. 


Sophie

79 comments:

  1. Oh no, we is so sad to hear about Esme. Sending big hugs and westie kisses to y'all. <3

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  2. Oh, Sophie. We are so sorry, and in tears to hear of Esmeralda's journey to the Rainbow Bridge. We wish there was something we could say or do to make this easier, but know there is not. Your love for your special girl will live forever, and your spirits entwined always. Sending you love and purrs and prayers.

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  3. Dearest Sophie,
    So few ever know the love that you and Esme had. You were both so very blessed to have shared the same time and place for days in your lifetimes.
    Yours is a great story of complete love. I am so glad that it happened.
    Your parting breaks my heart. I hold you in you in this time of such sorrow.
    Love you,
    Lily

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  4. I'm so very sad that Esme is gone, and so is my human. She was everything you said she was, and more.

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  5. This is such a sad story. It is so hard to say goodbye to our wondrous kitty persons. I am so sorry you lost Esme. She sounds like such a gift.

    Pet lovers please check out my homeless cat blog for stories of the abandoned/feral cat colony I manage.

    Debby in Prescott Valley, Arizona


    http://RescuesAndMore.blogspot.com

    http://YourAngelSpeaks.com

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  6. Oh Sophie, I'm so sorry your Tiny Dancer, sweet Esme has departed. I'm all in tears. I'm sure she felt very safe with you by her side, listening to you sing the song for her. Sending you much love and warm thoughts in this very hard time of sorrow.

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  7. I am so sorry about Esme. Their lives are way too short but they touch us to our souls.

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  8. I am sat here in floods of tears. I have just found out about Esme and read your loving wonderful tribute with tears falling.

    I am so sorry you lost your wonderful girl, your Tiny Dance of miraculous proportions, and such great GREAT beauty.

    No-one can replace a precious soul who has such a bond with you and I feel an empty space in my heart too for your lovely girls.

    I am so very sorry.

    Marjorie

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  9. I'm bawling as I read this. Such a beautiful tribute to your beautiful little angel. I'm so very sorry and so heartbroken for both of your devastating losses :(

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  10. Sweet Sophie, we are so saddened to hear about the lovely Esme. Please allow yourself time to grieve and know that our thoughts are with you.
    Sending you much love and comfort during this difficult time.
    ((HUGS))

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  11. We're in tears after reading your post. We're so, so sad to hear about your sweet Esme. We're heartbroken for you. We send you comforting purrs and gentle headbonks. Purrs and hugs

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  12. Oh, miss Sophie, Granny and I are heartbroken for you. How intensly sad this is, losing two of your dearest ones in such a short periode. What a sweet little Angel she was. Fly Free beautiful soul <3 Soft Pawkisses to comfort you all <3 <3 <3

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  13. We love you both, and always will ... farewell sweet Esme.

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  14. Oh my.... I know no words can describe how you are feeling at this moment, but it is a pain we all share, with you and for you. You will never be alone, and those we love though now far away are still close and within our hearts and minds.
    It is part of the gift that they give us, that whilst makes passing such sorrow, also gives us the chance for sweet memories to drive away the pain.
    Dearest Esme, be with us always and live on through and with your mom and family and help brighten the dark days ahead...

    Sweet tears and gentle purrrs
    Erin

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  15. Such a beautiful tribute for a kitty gone far too soon. Your words tell me she was your soul kitty, a rare and amazing relationship few get to experience. I was blessed to have had a soul kitty, and know well the pain you are feeling. But the beauty of her soul lives on in your heart. When you miss her most, just close your eyes, and look in your heart and your memories of her will bring you comfort. Sending you the gentlest of hugs and keeping you in my thoughts and prayers.

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  16. We are so sorry for your loss of Esme,but she is with Mitalee having fun chasing butterflies I bet,many hugs and much love are winging their way to you,xx Rachel and Speedy

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  17. What a beautiful tribute to your beautiful Essex. I'm sorry for your loss so soon after Mitalee. Purrs and prayers for all during this difficult time.

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  18. Sophie, I'm crying so hard I can barely see the screen. I'm broken-hearted for you, so deeply sorry you've lost Esme. I wish I had some words of comfort to help you through your journey of grief, but we all know that no words can. My thoughts are with you and I'm sending universal Light, wishing you blessings. Nicki and Derry send soft purrs and nose kisses.

    (((Hugs)))

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  19. We just heard this very sad news. You have done such a moving tribute to her we cant stop the tears. She truly was one of a kind and was sent to you with a huge heart in a tiny body. Fly free Esme and watch over your Mom and all of us until that day we all meet again. We do hope you will post again once you have had time to grieve
    Love purrs and prayers
    Timmy, Dad Pete and Family

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  20. The pain is exquisite. So is the love you had and still have, for one another. Please accept my condolences. I,as do the others here understand your sorrow and pain.

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  21. I'm so very sorry for your loss. Sending purrs and prayers.

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  22. I am so heartbroken for you. I too had that one special kitty and it felt like a part of my heart left with her. Time eventually heals. I can now look back and remember her and be so thankful for the love and life she gave me.

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  23. We are so sorry for the loss of your heart cat Esme - especially so close to the loss of Mitalee ! Purrs and POTP to you and all the other Critters.

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  24. I'm sorry for your loss. That was a beautiful tribute. Sending comforting thoughts.

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  25. I am so sorry for your loss - so soon after Mitalee :(
    Sending hugs to you and Daddyman. Judy

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  26. Dearest, Sophie - I am so very sorry. My heart has shattered this morning reading this news. What a beautiful tribute. The love you and Esme shared was so very special. I love that you had a song for her. So very sweet. Please know that you are in my thoughts and prayers. Sending lots of love your way.

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  27. Such a beautiful post for sweet Esme. I know there are no words of comfort right now. Sending you hugs and love. XO

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  28. Sophie, such loss is almost unbearable. Such a precious soul and she shared that soul with you...how fortunate you are. Sending a warm hug and Savannah's soft purrs

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  29. We are so, so sorry to hear about dear sweet Esme. We all send you purrs, hugs and all our love. Run free dear girl, you touched so many hearts.

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  30. Dearest Sophie, What a beautiful tribute to your sweet baby. She was definitely a kitty of your heart. It hurts me so much that she too is now an angel and not wrapped in your arms where she belongs. I wanted to come by after I finished our post last night, but I was too tired and muddle headed. Your final line saying how fortunate you two were to be together in the world at the same time was beautiful. I hope you can always cherish that and all the time you spent together. Many nice comments have been left for you on our post as well. I am holding you and all the other critters and Daddy Man close in my heart. I hope all the outpouring of love from your friends will grant you some comfort. I am sending love, prayers and warm hugs. Your friend, Janet

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  31. I am so sorry to hear that you lost both Esme and Mitalee, especially so close together. Hugs to all of you, critters and humans.

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  32. We are so sorry. May Esme & Mitalee fly free & play like kittens again OTRB.♡♡♡

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  33. Oh no...I'm so sorry to hear about your sweet Esme. May tender memories provide some measure of comfort. Run free sweet kitty. 💔

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  34. You had such a close bond with sweet Eseme that I know she is still with you in spirit. Sending love and healing light in your loss. Watch over mom angel Eseme.

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  35. OH NO!! I didn't know til I read this. I am so deeply, deeply sorry. I used to always tell my Angel Bobo he had to "stay with me til he was 24" and when you mentioned you told Esme she had to be with you til well into her 20s, I sooo understood! I lost Bobo a day after his 18th birthday. Sending you love and (((hugs)))))

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  36. We are so sorry to hear this saddest news about Esme.
    That she was your heart kitty makes it that much harder.
    We send lots of comforting purrs to you and the family.
    Purrs Georgia,Julie and JJ
    and mum Nancy

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  37. Sophie

    I am so sorry to hear about Esme. Your tribute is so touching for a special ladycat. My thoughts are with you as you go through this grief so soon after losing Mitalee.

    Paaula

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  38. Dear ESME's family
    Mom and I send gentle hugs and kitty kisses. We are sorry to read about your Tiny Dancer
    crossing over to the Rainbow Bridge
    Hugs madi

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  39. We posted about ESME's passing over at the POTP blog
    http://blogvillepotp.blogspot.com
    Madi and mom

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  40. We are so sorry and sad that sweet Esme had to leave. We are sending lots of warm, gentle hugs, purrs, prayers and nose kisses

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  41. She will visit. Heart to heart Soul to soul Forever. A soul doesn't die and one as beautiful as Esme's certainly wouldn't She will be waiting at the bridge the day you cross over it.

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  42. Mee-you what a luvley song Lady Sophie...yur LUV keeped Esme goin ttil it was her time to go. An shee made sure you NEW how much shee luvved you. AS mee an LadyMum red yur bloggie post LadyMum said yur Esme was just like Mingflower thee Merciless Baby suck....her Bluepoint Meezer who onlee wayed 7 pounds. ladyMum said you an Esme were just like her an Mingflower. An then thee leeky eyess came.....
    Pleeze know wee are here fur you an send you LUV an gentull {{hugsss}} an **paw patsss**
    Sinseerlee, Purrince Siddhartha Henry an LadyMum <3 <3

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  43. We are so sorry that Esme had to leave you. So so sad. But just know she was such a lucky kitty to have had all the love that you gave to her. Sending some big hugs.

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  44. Oh Sophie, my heart has broken for you. I'm so very sorry for the loss of Esme. And so soon after Mitalee, such a double heart ache shouldn't be allowed. Sending you love and hugs and purrs from all of us.

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  45. I am so sorry for your loss of sweet Esme. There are no words to ease your pain, but my thoughts and love are with you.

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  46. We are so sorry to see that Esme has gone but she was loved until the last second of her life. Hugs to you all!

    Your Pals,

    Murphy & Stanley

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  47. Dear Sophie and family, I am so sorry that ESME had to leave for the bridge. What a tender sweet post you honored her with. My heart breaks for you-I know your heart is breaking. Sending big hugs your way!
    Noreen

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  48. Oh no this is so sad she will be missed by you a lot of this I am sure

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  49. We care so very sorry and heartbroken

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  50. Your tribute to your baby was so beautiful. I'm so sorry for your loss. Keep all the good memories safe in your heart forever.

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  51. Mais uma vez estou em lágrimas, lamento muito a perda de Esme.
    Um abraço carinhoso para você Sophie.
    Adri

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  52. Oh no, we're so sad for you. Sending hugs and purrs.

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  53. I am heart broken to hear of Esme's passing. She is such a sweet, special girl. A loving tribute to your beautiful girl. Sending you thoughts, prayers, purrs.
    Maggie
    Winston and Emily

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  54. What a terrible thing, to lose someone so young. I know what that's like. You were able to spend Esme's last night with her, which is a blessing. But it was like she couldn't go with you watching, and she had to be in her usual spot one last time. What a beautiful soul that has been set free. You will see her again. Until then, Godspeed, Esme.

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  55. Sending love and hugs your way...
    Arty, Jakey and Mama Beth

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  56. She will be with you always, every night, in your dreams.
    I'm so sorry for your loss.
    Trish xx

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  57. She knew your love and gave it back 100 fold! sending purrs and hugs

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  58. I am so sorry that you had to say that final goodbye to your dear sweet Esme.
    What a sweet heart she was, and how she loved with all her teeny heart...way bigger than her own wee self.

    We made you a card to honor her memory:

    http://kimages.imikimi.com/image/1qtzM-29B.jpg

    Just take that code...then you can save/post it wherever you'd like.

    Sending huge purrs and hugs
    Pipo, dog-guy, and petcretary Ingrid

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  59. Our hearts are breaking for all of you over your loss of dear sweet Esme. Hugs and comforting purrs.

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  60. Each day is hard, so still today, you are in our thoughts ...
    sending love.

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  61. We are so sorry for your loss. This is heartbreaking.

    Sending you lots of hugs and purrs xx

    Athena and Marie

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  62. Esme; Godspeed your journey to heaven ~~~~ we held hope that this day would not come for a very very long time ~~~~ we are truly sorry it did. Your mom's tribute post is beautiful; just as you are, were and always will be. May God give her peace in her heart in the knowing you're not truly gone; but watching over her from a place she can't physically see. we send all our hugs and loves ~~~~~ dai$y, tuna, dude, boomer, sauce ♥♥♥♥♥

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  63. RIP Angel Esme, and Angel Mitalee too. Sending hugs and purrs.

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  64. So so sorry to hear the news. You two clearly had a special bond. The cats send purrs

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  65. Absolutely heartbreaking, sending my deepest condolences and rumbly purrs of healing and comfort.

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  66. I read this with tears in my eyes. I am so sorry for your loss. 11 is so young. I recently lost my sweet girl...age 7. Cancer, out of the blue....and fast. She and I lost at least a decade together. I weep for her all the time and miss her terribly. I love that you have a song. I have a song for my boy that I sing when we travel in the car and he gets stressed - "You Are My Sunshine". I hope every night, you still sing your song.

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  67. Oh no! We just saw this. We are so, so sorry. Esme was a wonderful cat with a giant heart in that tiny little body. Big hugs to her and you!

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  68. Sweet, sweet Esme. You were always one of our secret favourites, the beautiful soul in a beautiful body. You were far too young to leave, and we are so very sad. We are sending huge purrs and hugs to Sophie, the kitten babies, Duffy and Wilhelmina.

    Purrs,
    Woofs, Neighs and Hugs,
    All of us at The Poupounette

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  69. I don't have the words to express what I'm feeling after reading this. Heartbroken isn't enough. Bear's eleven ... and he taught me how to accept love ... how to live and not just survive. His loss wouldn't just be heartbreak ... it'd be utter devastation and desolation. That's the closest inkling I can get to imagine what you're feeling. One thing that is very clear ... Esme is loved. And she loved you with everything she had. Your ability to share her with us ensured that we love her too. She will live on in our hearts - continuing to shape us into better people just by knowing her.

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  70. Oh no, we are so sorry to read of Esme's departure offur the rainbow bridge. Please accept our deepest sympathies, big hugs, soft purrs and gentle headbumps.

    Know that mew are in our thoughts and prayers

    Basil & CO xox

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  71. Sweet Esme, we know you are the brightest angel in the heavens and know that you were very, very loved. Sending hugs and purrs to you and your mama.

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  72. Sorry for your loss. Daisy Mae and I send our thoughts and prayers

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  73. We didn't know Esme that well but we stopped for a chat every once in awhile. You look like a Vancouver resident. Another BC'er. We are so sorry to read of Esme's passing. She was so young.

    Shoko, Kali amd their mom

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  74. Oh Sophie, I have been weeping to hard to write my sympathies. I know how much Mitalee and your tiny dancer Esme meant to you. My grief is almost as great as when Nellie left earlier this year. I send you all my love and much strength for the next weeks. Know that I think of you often and you and Malou, and Levon, and Whilhelmina and Duffy and Daddy are in my purrayers.
    Love
    Barb (and Marvelous)

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  75. My deepest, deepest condolences. This is such a beautiful tribute to beautiful Esme. I will miss her sweet face on your blog. The girls and I are sending healing purrs your way.

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  76. Dear Sophie, I have just seen this post of yours buried in my emails and am in disbelief...I know there are no words to truly take the unbearable pain away for the loss of your soul and heart kitty Esme, yet my wish for you is that the beautiful words left here for you will be a gentle, healing balm on your heart and soul. Your post is one of the most vivid and touching tributes I have read. Your love for each other is profound. Having met Esme in person, I have experienced how your Tiny Dancer so easily captured a human's heart...I will truly miss her. Holding you and Daddyman and the Critters in my thoughts, prayers and heart.

    Be Well Sweet Esme

    Much love,
    Karyn

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  77. We have been out of blogville for a few weeks and are so sorry to hear about the loss of your dear Esme. Hugs.

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